Monday, December 10, 2018

2019 Goals

Here we are, again: mid-December, the time my gaze shifts to the new year ahead. This year, I've grouped my goals thematically rather than chronologically:

Spiritual
-Finish Reading the Bible Again for the First Time by Marcus Borg
-Read The Jewish Bible
-Strengthen daily meditation practice, especially Lectio Divina, utilizing The Jewish Bible, The Liturgists meditations, and others
-Go on 3-4 personal retreats, to the nearby Nahimana Forest and the not-so-close Mepkin Abbey in South Carolina and the Hermitage of the Holy Cross in West Virginia

Relational
-Continue to build daily closeness with Mindy
-Continue to build community with friends by hosting dinners and going out on co-dates with other couples
-? Church men's group
-Participate in college friend's book club every 2 months

Physical
-Participate in 3-4 triathlons this summer
-Kayak on the New River 6 times and another river at least once
-Teach myself the bongos, practice 3-4 times per week (most of my off-days)
-Vegetable garden again
-Smoke meat at least 3-4 times
-Forage for mushrooms at least once
-Grow mushrooms in a climate-controlled manner

Vocational
-Engage in leadership program project
-Go through a lot of case studies on my own
-? Pitch Grand Rounds project to hospital leadership in preparation for Family Medicine Residency (set to start in July 2020)
-Identify and start other Family Medicine Residency projects


The big-picture themes for my year are reapproaching the Bible in a new way and generosity of spirit. My goal is to be more empathetic, warm, and understanding by the end of next year than I am now. Though I'll still be reading books and book summaries and posting my reflections, I'll be more focused on the emotional and relational side of life, which is where I stand to grow the most right now. And I hope that, as a result, joy and humor will flow like never before!

Wednesday, December 5, 2018

Dan's Top Ten Lists of 2018!

I would ask for forgiveness for such a clickbaity title, but I'm really not sorry.

Top 10 Memories

  1. Kayaking with Mindy on the Nantahala River
  2. Kevin Lloyd's wedding
  3. My yearly 3-day college guy's weekend (aka "PAW")
  4. Backpacking with Mindy in Uwharrie National Forest
  5. The Goble family beach trip to Oak Island
  6. My weekend visit with Sam Cox, Lee Robeson, and Sam's friend Nick in Raleigh
  7. Kayaking with Mindy on the New River
  8. Visiting my brother Thomas, Lindsey, and my nephew James in Roanoke Rapids
  9. Biking the Creeper Trail with Mindy, Norm, Cassidy, and their kids Calloway and Waverly
  10. Swimming in the Watauga Lake Triathlon


Top 10 Podcasts

  1. The Bible for Normal People
  2. The Deconstructionists
  3. The Liturgists
  4. The Robcast
  5. The New Yorker: Fiction
  6. On Being
  7. The Art of Charm
  8. Ask Science Mike
  9. History of Philosophy Without Any Gaps
  10. Dan Carlin's Hardcore History: Addendum


Top 10 Books

  1. Sinners in the Hands of a Loving God
  2. The Road to Unfreedom
  3. Reading the Bible Again for the First Time
  4. The Mountain of Silence
  5. Mastery
  6. Man's Search for Meaning
  7. Grit
  8. On Writing Well
  9. Evolution and the Fall
  10. Sapiens


Top 10 Apps

  1. Blinkist
  2. Spotify
  3. Pocket
  4. Evernote
  5. Strava
  6. Focus@will
  7. The Weather Channel
  8. Interval Timer
  9. Yoga Studio
  10. Goodreads


Top 10 Shows

  1. I literally only watched one TV show this year, and that was Black Mirror. But it was really good, so I'll keep it at the number one spot.
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2018 Goals in Review

Things morphed in 2018 as they always do. Here are my SMART goals (with trips in parentheses) from last December, color coded in green if completed and red if not.


January (into February): Reach Level 2 in the Krav Maga self-defense course (See family in Roanoke Rapids and friends in Raleigh)

February (into March): Write a 1-day course on obstetrics, prenatal care, and neonatal resuscitation I will be teaching for Equip International's Missionary Medicine Intensive course 4 times per year starting in March (2-day marriage conference in Charlotte)

March: Focus on cultivating my marriage and applying concepts from the marriage conference (Camp in Uwharrie National Forest)

April-May: Design and build the library, build a barrel composter, help Mindy build the chicken coop (3-day weekend with college friends, kayak trip #1)

June: Work on my kayaking skills (Kayak trip #2, camp in Elkmont, TN)

July: Start growing oyster mushrooms, experiment with new dishes in the kitchen using home-grown produce (Goble family beach trip)

August: Morning meditation, practicing presence, positivity (Camping trip near Brevard, kayak trip #3)

September: Build a plyo box, lifting platform, and prowler (Trip with Mindy's family)

October: Do the ketogenic diet. It's time. (Backpacking trip with college friends)

November: We may be having puppy grandchildren around this time. If not, I'm sure something will have come up. (Travel to see Mindy's family in Oklahoma and maybe Colorado and Wichita)

December: Do Christmas here and plan for 2019. No trips (hopefully)!


In lieu of the things in red, we built a fence around our 6.5 acres for the dogs, had Lula spayed, bought two rabbits (only one of which survives to this day), biked the Creeper Trail, I did the swim portion of a triathlon, started a leadership seminar at the hospital, visited my friends Sam and Lee in Raleigh, went on a couple personal retreats, and started biking regularly. All in all, the number of projects and trips I ended up completing was the same as the number I hoped to complete at the beginning of the year. So on that measure, the year was a success!

I also feel pretty good about how I explored my dual themes of Creativity and Connection. Mindy and I have grown by leaps and bounds, and I've also cultivated a couple close friendships outside of work. I tried to write a short story but lacked the vision to finish it which was a bummer. But I was inspired to write a poem on Connection after a counseling session, which turned out very well. My many reflections on books and ideas reflect the kind of content I feel most interested in creating at the moment. So on the measure of exploring my key themes, 2018 was also a win!

But the most important metric of a year is personal and relational growth. The activities and themes above were all geared towards these ends, and I couldn't have asked for a richer year of growth. As we wrap up 2018 like a Christmas box and set our sights on 2019, I'd encourage you to outline some projects and themes to focus on, write them down, and review them as they come to mind to see how you're doing. At the end of next year, you'll be thankful for the course you've charted and the progress you've made.


Facebook, freedom, and fascism

I don't want to write about Facebook. You already know the effect social media has on your attention span, and that posts which arouse prejudice and outrage get more likes and shares. If you're like everyone else, you realize from time to time that you should be doing better things with your life, so you deactivate or stop checking your account for awhile, only to crawl back to the feet of Zuckerberg a few weeks later. You know that Facebook doesn't give a damn about your privacy, but you just can't stay away. Perhaps you even recognize this for what it is: carefully-engineered addiction. Social Media Disorder. Maybe even you've seen a therapist for it, and made some progress in curbing your addiction. If so, you deserve to be commended.

But that's not what I'm interested in exploring, because the problem has shifted from an individual and psychological one to a societal and existential one. If you were on Facebook in 2015-2016 and voted for Donald Trump (or for Leave, if you're reading this from the UK), you were likely co-opted by Russian trolls and bots over the course of 18 months in 2015-2016. Hostile Russian intelligence services recruited millions of American citizens into fake online "communities" which spread misinformation and succeeded in driving the narrative of the 2016 election. But this may be old news to you too, and it's also not what I want to write about.

What I want to communicate today is twofold. The first is that healthy civil dialogue in free societies around the world (the US, the UK, most of Europe, Australia, New Zealand, Japan, and South Korea) rests on the foundation of shared facts. And in the era of manipulable mass digital media, this is the soft underbelly of free societies that is being exploited. Donald Trump's never-ceasing torrent of verbal and written misinformation is Exhibit A. Though thoughtful folk like you and me would like to ignore his ravings, that's exactly the attitude that contributed to his election. Donald Trump and his lie machine can be hated, resisted, and (with persistence) corrected at every turn, but they cannot be ignored. He has muddied the very concept of truth by repeating the phrase "fake news" ad nauseum in reference to information very much grounded in reality, while promoting a constant flood of genuinely fake news. And to those of you who may be rusty on your history, allow me to remind you: this is always the first step towards fascism. Mussolini and Hitler are the first to come to mind, but it's also a tactic Vladimir Putin employed eight years ago as he transitioned Russian society into a full-fledged authoritarian oligarchy... around the same time he was funneling millions of dirty rubles into The Trump Organization, coincidently. But I digress.

The attacks on our information systems have no doubt already started to evolve into more sophisticated techniques as Twitter, Facebook, and the government crack down on first-generation misinformation techniques. As Renee DiResta puts it in her article linked below, 

Algorithmic distribution systems will always be co-opted by the best resourced or most technologically capable combatants. Soon, better AI will rewrite the playbook yet again — perhaps the digital equivalent of  Blitzkrieg in its potential for capturing new territory. AI-generated audio and video deepfakes will erode trust in what we see with our own eyes, leaving us vulnerable both to faked content and to the discrediting of the actual truth by insinuation. Authenticity debates will commandeer media cycles, pushing us into an infinite loop of perpetually investigating basic facts. Chronic skepticism and the cognitive DDoS [digital denial of service, a type of cyberattack] will increase polarization, leading to a consolidation of trust in distinct sets of right and left-wing authority figures – thought oligarchs speaking to entirely separate groups.

A sample of memes from far-right communities like Britain First, Sos racisme anti-blanc, Meninist Posts, 4chan, /r/The_Donald, and United Patriots Front.Which brings me to my second point: the theater of this "warm war" is the minds of (currently) free citizens like you and me. Being a war of misinformation and manipulation, it depends on us plugging in and reading, watching, or listening to content generated by fascists (state-supported, homegrown, or both). This is the soft underbelly of the fascist cyberwarriors. If enough citizens wake up, unplug from the torrent of misinformation, and plug into genuine news outlets with legitimate journalists and editorial boards, the fascist cyberwar machine will starve.

This requires each of us to become more circumspect and sophisticated in our consumption of media. Gone is the era when you could blithely scroll your news feed and repost pictures or articles that strike your fancy. We are all going to have to put forth some cognitive effort in evaluating what we consume. Of course, the government also has a giant role it must fulfill. As Renee DiResta puts it, 

We need an understanding of free speech that is hardened against the environment of a continuous warm war on a broken information ecosystem. We need to defend the fundamental value from itself becoming a prop in a malign narrative.
The solution to this problem requires collective responsibility among military, intelligence, law enforcement, researchers, educators, and platforms. Creating a new and functional defensive framework requires cooperation.
It’s time to prioritize frameworks for multi-stakeholder threat information sharing and oversight. The government has the ability to create meaningful deterrence, to make it an unquestionably bad idea to interfere in American democracy and manipulate American citizens. It can revamp national defense doctrine to properly contextualize the threat of modern information operations, and create a whole-of-government approach that’s robust regardless of any new adversary, platform, or technology that emerges. And it can communicate threat intelligence to tech companies.
Technology platforms, meanwhile, bear much of the short-term responsibility. They’re the first line of defense against evolving tactics, and have full visibility into what’s happening in their corner of the battlespace. And, perhaps most importantly, they have the power to moderate as they see fit, and to set the terms of service. For a long time, the platforms pointed to “user rights” as a smokescreen to justify doing nothing. That time is over. They must recognize that they are battlespaces, and as such, must build the policing capabilities that limit the actions of malicious combatants while  protecting the actual rights of their real civilian users.
If that sounds like a tall order for a government crippled by hyperpartisanship and giant technology companies defined by their short-sighted leadership and toxic cultures, I'm with you. But you can do one thing: #deletefacebook.

If you're not motivated enough to quit social media for your own privacy and well-being, perhaps the realization that Russian-backed fascists are using it in an attempt to destabilize our society will outrage you enough to do something. But deleting Facebook is only the start. The foundation of a free society is public discourse with shared facts, and that is under attack. So start spreading the word, and wake people up to the situation we face. Fact check your sources. Stop being lazy. Freedom itself depends on it.


For further reading:
1. An up-to-date analysis of state-supported misinformation cyberwar cited extensively above: https://www.ribbonfarm.com/2018/11/28/the-digital-maginot-line/?utm_source=pocket&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=pockethits

2. A good overview of how widely distributed right-wing misinformation cyberwar has become throughout the world:  https://www.buzzfeednews.com/article/ryanhatesthis/brazil-jair-bolsonaro-facebook-elections?utm_source=pocket&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=pockethits



5. An article discussing Facebook's lack of privacy protections after the Cambridge Analytica scandal broke: https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2018/mar/20/facebook-is-it-time-we-all-deleted-our-accounts?utm_source=pocket&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=pockethits


7. A brief article that highlights many of the main problems with Facebook, with the great quote that "the promise of connection has turned out to be a reality of division."  https://www.vanityfair.com/news/2017/11/the-end-of-the-social-era-twitter-facebook-snapchat?utm_source=pocket&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=pockethits


9. A discussion of the societal effects of "technologically enabled persistent crowds" on Facebook and Twitter: https://www.ribbonfarm.com/2016/09/15/crowds-and-technology/

10. The difficulties our society is facing as a result of the erosion of trust in our institutions. https://www.politico.com/magazine/story/2018/09/06/common-ground-good-america-society-219616?utm_source=pocket&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=pockethits

11. The book I just finished reading that exposes over a decade of deep ties between Russia and Trump, along with an exploration of the rise of fascism in Putin's Russia, its war in Ukraine, and its attempt to export fascism to the rest of Europe and the US.  https://www.amazon.com/Road-Unfreedom-Russia-Europe-America/dp/0525574468/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1544018305&sr=8-1&keywords=the+road+to+unfreedom